Confessions of a scale-aholic
So, I dissapeared for a while, .. it was a weird week. Sunday I went for my monster run and felt great. That morning, before my run, I weighed 166. The rest of the day I was in pain, lol. And, since according to my heartratemonitor I lost 1800 cals, I made sure I ate enough. No ‘forbidden’ foods though, except for 1 homemade chocolate chip cookie (YUM).
The next morning I stepped on the scale and it said 168!! I was totally depressed and surprised about that! I mean I just ran more than half a marathon the previous day. Made sure I drank my water and ate healthy and I gained!?!?! Tuesday and Wednesday I stepped on the scale several times a day and it ranged from 168.6 (?!?!?!) to 166.5. I did go out for a run on Tuesday morning but I was so depressed about what the scale was saying that my heart wasn’t in it. No run on Thursday but on Thursday I also decided enough of this scale thumping. I like to run, I love to run and I cannot and will not let these stupid numbers on the scale rule my mood day in day out. Sunday shall be my weigh day and NO other day of the week am I to step on that devils machine!
This past week was the first real time where I was ready to throw in the towel and say screw it. I had cravings and urges where I wanted to just grab a bag of chips and start stuffing my face, or have another serving at dinner, or have icecream instead of my yoghurt for desert. I just didn’t know what to do to lose weight. Yeah I could eat less but I don’t want that. I am eating healthy and I need to keep doing that. This is the time where I am going to lose the weight responsibly and in a healthy way. No matter how long it will take. So this morning I stepped on the scale for the first time since Wednessday with dread and it said 163.4! So all in all I lost 2.6lbs this week. But what a rollercoaster ride it was. I need to get away from the scale and I need to see my running as something I love to do no matter what. And I also need to be ok with not going for a run if I really don’t feel like it. I did go yesterday morning and loved it again but tomorrow morning I’ll see.. It can’t become a drag or a burden that I am dreading.
So, eventhough I lost this week, I know I still have a long way to go psychologically, losing this weight is as much a psychological road as a physical; those 2 go hand in hand and only once we can figure out how to handle both of those, we have a fighting chance to keep this weight off I think.
I’m writing all this while waiting for the Turkey stock to be ready. This weekend is the Canadian thanksgiving and we are doing a turkey with all the trimmings. Yes I am going to eat it but I am going to watch my portion. I want to enjoy it but limit the quantity. (doing a new walnut-bacon-stuffing recipe which will probably be 3gazillion cals a serving lol) Pumpkin pie for desert.
Portion control is my task for tonight. I figure, turkey meat is good and lean, half a potato, lots of veggies, a half a spoonful of the stuffing, just for the taste and a little drizzle of the gravy for the taste too. A sliver of the pumpkin pie with a topping of light-whipped cream (30cals per 2tbsp) No bun because thats another 180cals I don’t really need. And lots of raw veggies just before dinner to fill me up. So.. that is my plan of attack, lets hope it works.
Then NO weighing tomorrow morning! This scale ho needs a break!
Thanks everyone for their wonderful comments on my last blog. I love you guys and I hope you have a great weekend!
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First of all, I think I said awesome job on that run, but in case I didnt–Amazing job.
Yes, dont let that scale kick you in the butt–your doing all the right things–thats your focus, not the scale. Most people go up and down a little anyway.
Sounds like a great plan for your thanksgiving dinner.
Happy Thanksgiving my Canadian Friend!
Great job on the run! Ahhh man, that scale is the pits isn’t it?
Big reason I weigh only once a week. That scale is evil! Happy Thanksgiving, and great job on the run!
I hate the scale.. I seem to always be disappointed lately.. I bet you are building muscle from running and your body is just readjusting, because you have been kickin ass!
Glad to see all is well - I missed you. The scale is definately a demon! Years ago when I belonged to Weight Watchers, I would literally weigh myself, change clothes, weigh myself again, etc until I found the lightest clothes to wear to weigh in. UGH - That really can mess with your psych. Later, when I knew I was making positive changes, and much like you, getting discouraged with numbers, I put the scale in my husband’s trunk so it went to work with him daily. He would bring it in the house every Friday for me, but other than that I couldn’t use it. Silly I know, but like all addictions, you need to break the cycle.
You are doing fabulous my friend, don’t let that nasty scale tell you otherwise!!
Tip for thanksgiving - Eat your turkey slowly savouring every mouthful like a Gourmet - and you will be easily able to stop when your body tells you you are getting full.
I feel the same about running - I love it - it liberates me - - when I used to run 5 times a week i couldnt beleive that i didn’t lose tonnes of weight and, like you had weeks where I gained in spite of burning loads of calories - i think it comes down to the muscle weighing heavier than fat thing !!
I think you have adopted the right attitude - Love it, enjoy it and reap the benefits over the longer term
Shelli X
I got really depressed about the scale so that is why I haven’t been in it in weeks, it’s not worth beating yourself up over everyday.
arrrgg the scale of doom. lol Girl I know what you are going thru. I go to that same place myself. Womens’ body are so weird. I wouldnt worry about the fluctuation. You know you are kickin it big time! The scale is just a number..its all how you feel
YAY for portion control…
And BOOOOOO to scales!!! I hate my scale now too! Im sick of numbers running my life! So you go girl! Have fun on your Turkey day! And dont let that scale control ya!!!
I am sure with the exercise that you are putting in you have started replacing fat for muscle!!